~A DARK SKY~

Staring blankly right ahead, on the design of my house's white ceiling. I was lying on the sofa, couldn't get into sleep. I guess there are decades to go for another sweet dreams for myself. Tears rolling down like nobody business. But What are "their" purpose? For a moment I thought my heart had stop beating. Coming to conscious, it is pounding again. Thank god. I'm not dead! Why am I feeling this guilt so heavily? I'm not supposed to feel this since my mistakes have been kept to minimum level. Why is my heart so heavy today? As if a thousand kilos of sandbag has been put on my shoulder. Who makes me carry this? The blame shouldn't be "owned" by anyone. It's too late to put blame or do any cursing and scoldings. It's a mistake that I would never let myself commit and hurt myself ever again.

Now I know,
Tears have come on the right time for myself. They are here for me. They told me that I don't need mercy from the cold human. Tears are my best friends now. They will be the one to accompany me when I'm in my deepest sorrows. Until Mr Sorrows left me. And time will tell......

"Arigatou Tears........."