Appreciate what we have now and never regret for those we gave up in the past. It is always no pain no gain. Nothing is easy in life and nothing is unsolvable. Have faith and u shall find the stars that shine u through the journey~
Monday, November 13, 2006
Renovation done, and we're moving Baybeh!!!!!
ok i can update darling!
sigh* looks like i have problem updating at home...so i guess i shall just move to my new bloggie la..ok?
please do visit me as often as you visit this blog haha and post some comment to fire up my passion in blogging cos i ain't blog like i used to lately.. ever since i move sigh*
..tipsily as I watched the Moulin Rouge clip on youtube today.
..by the fact that i'm draining out my inspiration. it seems alot tougher to get those words out lately. i'm losing a tad of my 'literal mind' which i now doubt if ever had one before. so guess i'm back to the form of a puny writer.
.. as the sad music casts an emotive wave on my heart. Am currently listening to the lake house soundtrack. "I abandoned my sadness, thus my blog." Now i figured why. It is indeed emo. Baby, the jay's song is sad but i kinda like it. been listening to it everytime i'm in office!
..thinking just how little self-worth we hold for ourselves when some girls willingly 'worship' a cheating man still even after going through the same thing over and over again. The power of love huh? DO remember that love don't sparkle with only one hand clapping. But just how often do we keep our ear attentive when it really comes to us. sad to say, reminder always fell onto deaf ears especially when we are so drowned in love. even so, some mocking birds might still go nodding to it sarcastically, believing that miracle does exist and so do 'now-and-forever'...how ironic! i guess women are just good at see-no-evil,speak-no-evil-hear-no-evil. so, life is tough for us when the man thought that we are cute. -_-"
Rainy sucks the connection and it drifts us apart even in cyber world...
so it's true when they say inspiration do run out sometimes. it seems like i don't blog like i used to blog. it happened right when i'm still recovering from my sickness. coughing badly still especially on these rainy days recently.
kito: Get prepare some seedless apples and slow cook it with red dates.Ease your suffer. me: Must well i eatthe apples. i love chewing =) kito: -_-lll Different lah, auntie... me: *smiling and couhing happily still*
The rain wouldn't stop!!
..even we're on our way back home. We reached this highway, my instinct tell me that it was Mahameru, where we have no other way to go but to stuck right there. Ahead of us, the water level is high enough for a baby milo pool. Right in front of us was a red satria with a freaky driver.
yau: Honned the red satria to move abit la.. kito: *bon bon* me: he doesn't even tilt. kito:*bon bon* If i drive storm, i would've whoop his ass. me:*excitedly* show him finger,yau!
kito 'gorss tan' his car and drove past the driver. kito: *bon bon* yau: *winding down the window* move forward a bit la...damn it! me: er..? he seems a little too life..less!? *in horror*
Another second, the freaky driver left us all shouting in horror in kito's car. Amazed by his er...lifeless pose. Or could he be dead? That's a question! But it does give me a creep. Eww...
So we go vroom through the flood and stucked back in jam again. While I was still calming myself down after the red-satria-oh-san, I was in horror again.
SMOKES..alot of them!!
me: I think i see asap..isn't that from our car? kito: no la...it's from the exhaust of the camry la me: err..i doubt so.. yau: it's normal me: ...
A few minutes passed,
yang:hey, that's abit too long, isn't it? yau: yea.. me: aku takut... yau: we should just stop and check.
Still the rain just wouldn't stop!!
But I'm once again on the rolling wheel. Now I blog the way I blog. Yay!! But coughing getting worse. ="( Rainy nights gonna kill my lung.
I'm sweating finally. Recovering!! Yippie hooray~ It's been some time since the last time I was sick. Although I do admit that I'm pretty much of a sicko at times. geez...*biting my own fingernails*
So I see, I've been resting for like....two days at home. It's amazing how I managed to tame myself down this two days. It's just not me to stay at home whole day long doing nothing. Anyway, it's good despite the boredom being locked up in an enclosed area. Maybe this is what happened when you're not bounded since young and given this limitless freedom. However, I'm yet to be an obnoxious wild cat. Still far away though...
Hippie I go.... Me : I wanna enroll! *excited* Girl : Ok come 10 mins earlier before the class. Me : =)
Yay! I was on the fence not able to decide whether to take up a yoga class or dance class. So...there I did it! However, 4 classes in a month normally don't satisfy me much. I would love it if they'd offer me 8 classes a month! Not that I wanna strain myself out so much but I just like it when I have something meaningful to keep me occupied. And there's one yoga studio meet up to my requirements. So that's how I get stucked up in this dilemma. I'm proud that I 've made up my mind! I called the dance studio and there's no turning back. Weee~
I hope the studio isn't as sucks as what my sister has described. Sweats rolling down my cheek.
Sis : Freedom tipu money!! Ask you warm up for half an hour and only teach you in another half hourtime. Me : Really ha? *struggling in dilemma* Sis : I don't care la, since u like to be conned then you go ahead! Me : .... *stoned*
Again I said, I made up my mind. I'm going to dance with my runny nose no matter what. *sob..sob* Wish me luck.
Can I just see you every morning when I open my eyes...?
Just why did you wake me up?
I feel this intense pain in my throat. Feeling coarse inside which makes me feel uneasy and been swallowing my own spits hoping they would be 'washed' down. Somebody just gimme a parang and scrub. I wanna cut my throat into half and give its inner part a nice refining scrub.
Argh!! %$%$&&*&^#@$~
Isn't in a good condition. Dry skin. Eye bags. Pimples popping out. (Ew..) And I'm gonna put all the blames on my lousy hair!! Hairstyle is normally my confidence booster. Now that I'm losing it, so what do you expect?! OK leave that parang here. Somebody just help me chop my bloody hairs.
I need rest. But rest to me is likely to be "Hey you're free! Get some enetertainment out there!" So you see how badly I strained myself to work 7 days in a week. God, what happened to the 8th day? *Crying*I need you. I need you to chain me up....
It is still early. Like I said, why did you wake me up! Now I need to endure longer hours of pain. I can't possibly get back into sleep with such sickening pain! Ooh, by the way I made myself a cup of hot honey milk. It helps to ease my pain and I'm getting addicted to it now. Is it fattening? Somebody please advise...
I see colored funky punky hairdos. Black cool outfits. Tight pants. 'prisoner' pantie stockings. Don't really know how to appreciate them. Just not in my fashion line.
But I do attracted to the make ups. On man's face. The black smoky eye shadow is perfect. I should really try it one day.
Me and my friends were at Halo Cafe with one primary objective that is to support a friend who is going to perform tonight. So we waited patiently. (yeah....right!)
cookie: OMG! Did u do smoky effect to your eyes? me: no...!? Not that I wanna join the other freak with black panda eyes. cookie: owh..how many nights have u missed your sleep? me: 1... cookie: Oo.. u have natural smoky eyes. *Bewildered*
After an hour passed...
cookie is shooting another glance at me. She goes, cookie: Really...how many nights have u not sleeping? me: 1...*heaved a heavy breath*
OK the waiting is losing its point now. I am losing my patience. Not feeling well. Just wanna get myself outta freaking noisy cafe that almost had my ear drums spoilt. "Give face lah.." OK so I stayed. After two hours, the time has come. His band went up the stage and started with their screams. (rock and jam, you know..x-japan sort of thing?)
To my horror, he ain't going up! Wuutt?!! We waited so long to support you on the stage. And you...you...watch below the stage as an audience! "He is going up during the third song."
It's amazing how the angel and the devil play their parts in our life
Time : 3.08am
What am I doing up here? I should be sleeping. I missed him.
*Calling* Having this wicked thoughts that I might wanna wake him up from his sleep. tuu...tut..tuu.tut......"Halo?"
There, it was a success. =)
Now I really should be on my bed.
Another thoughts hit me. I wanna call again to tell him that I missed him alot. But..but... Enough. I told myself, trying to empty my mind. The angel is back to give the devil a kick on his butt.
On one fine early morning, the birds are chirping happily, the tree is dancing with the wind gracefully ..er, ok I ain't making any sense here.
We were happily planning what's ahead of the rest of the day. So happily but to no avail. He was stoned in his car as I turned over from the door. His oh-no expression actually told me everything. Lovely charade is dead. Its poor engine wasn't even making a fuss, not to mention his last will before it went completely dead.
We put in loads of efforts to revive poor charade. But helpless it seems. I do have thoughts that CPR might help. Freaky though. Not if nobody could pinpoint any other revival methods.
So, we decided to throw it a 'r.i.p' glance and we off on feet. Trotted to the nearest stalls and had a not-so-cool breakfast. The food sucks ok. We didn't managed to finish it and my baby wasn't feeling well. "Owh..poor boy, come to mommy here." *Kiss*
Well thanks to the cranky ventilation, we could stand the stuffy air no more. Awkwardly, we moved and trotted back home.
We reached a corner passing the school. "Raawwr!!!!!" I turned my head towards the loud noise of engine from behind. I gasped, almost forgetting to breathe.
"FUCK YOU!!" The bloody car was only 2 or 3 metres away from my ass! I could see the driver was getting outta control of his own car. He was a lucky bitch to be able to direct his steering to the other side quick enough to avoid a pathetic accident of two loving birds.
I figured that he'd probably 'throwing' a corner to impress his partner. Halo?! Can DIE ga!
Sigh* What happened to the JPJ examiner these days? A short flashback..
JpJ : Cepat lah.. Me : Tak boleh, nanti langgar...*meter is displaying 60km/h* JpJ : Auntie, ni ada brek kat sini...*he shouted at me while stomping on the brake at his side* Me : Tak boleh...aku takut oh..*annoyed as the car is jerking back and forth* JpJ : Cepat lagi... Me : ...... *la lu li la la la du du dap* JpJ : Cepat ish... Me : .............
"....his golden spear filled with fire...plunged into me several times..penetrated to my entrails..a sweetness so extreme that one could not possibly wish it to stop..."
The above statement is picked from Angels and Demons... It is the description of an ancient sculpture named The Ecstasy of St. Teresa, the artwork of Bernini.
To respect Bernini (Wh..wh.at kinda name is this?! Remind me of 'nin nin') Gosh I just realised even an ancient scholar could be a pervert. No, today, they called such as sexy. Anyway, like the saying goes " 男 人 不 坏, 女 人 不 爱 ". =)
I'm freaking cold in this soulless office. I supposed to check on *something* tonight but it is raining. Hope it would stop soon. By the way, the air is getting cooler, results of the damp air outside and the cooling air cond inside. Can DIE one lah!
When they say study life is the best, don't try to deny it. Hands up in the air, even better still grab something and lift it as high as possible to show how much you agree on it. You know I would have stretched my legs up instead of my arms if I could do the upside down thingy like the sexy machos. You see I'm currently undergoing a 3 months industrial training in a pathetic company with weird name "Freescale". I believe many still find the name a laughing stock or worst, they'd probably be thinking if they'd really give away free scales. I'm bored. Partly is because of the stacking reports that are awaiting to be completed. And the distances that I need to travel to get to certain destinations inside the big factory is sickening. Ok I reminded myself that it is a big factory indeed...
I called it a day of work today. Now I'm left with no work til tomorrow. Results? I've develop a more serious procrastination. Like I said, I am bored. Somebody slap me in the face.
Yesterday, I rewarded myself with a hot thriller, about to hit the cinema soon. Hot hot hot. Anyway, I am just referring to the actors. =) The movie isn't that bad. Hey what do you expect? The story speaks mostly on super powers that few hotties have developed since young and like any other good vs bad movies, nightmares begin when the evil comes in the way of the good ones just because er....they are under the rolling cameras? Just kidding! The thirst of power. Well obviously, the chicks sufferrings usually come into picture at a time like this. This is when the hotties show their heroic side to go against the evil in order to save the world! SCRAP that guys... should it be 'save the chicks!' -The End-
Appreciate what we have now and never regret for those we gave up in the past. It is always no pain no gain. Nothing is easy in life and nothing is unsolvable. Have faith and u shall find the stars that shine u through the journey~
