~Clear position~

It's a cold early morning. Stuck in the train for 45 minutes, freezing my heart out. His understanding voice is still fresh in my mind. Reminding me, inspiring me of what I should be doing. What would I do without you? When I am petrified, all I need to do is close my eyes and feel your presence. I know the dearest will always stay close to me. Physically detached is nothing, but mentally attached means everything. The morning is still cold, now I'm freezing under the air cond in my office. I need a sweater I decided. Another 5 minutes, I would be off to the lab, hands on the machinery thingy. I hope my focus on work would be 100% today even though I am bothered by the "Confused him". After all, he is no longer influential to me. All I have for him is just care for a friend, I've never been so sure of it. My confusion is over, I know my position now. Let's pray for the "Confused him" to be blessed by god. I'm a sinner saved by grace. I guess the saying is best applied on me now. Put down the ego and rise up to be respected. This is my advice to you, the confused.

"..sipp..." Tasting the aroma of the hot coffee I've made for myself. It's bitter but the warmth it offerred is great. I'm glad I found it in you, the dearest. We will make it through even with great obstacles. One month...one year...3 years...lifetime....No matter how long the journey, it worth the price to pay. Unsettling problems of mine that keep coming in the way might make it unfair to you. But your understanding heart makes me stronger day by day when dealing with them. Have more self esteem towards yourself. Deep in my heart I know you are not how others described you as. Faith ......plays the game and we hold strong onto faith to control game.