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anotherpartofhermessedupasifsomekindofunknownvirusattacksherpathetic
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themontimelettingthemgetthebetterofheritisnothisfaultitishersshefreaksout
andactirrationallysuddenlyifthisisthesocalledjealousythenitwouldbeherfirsttime
feelingsosheissoconfusedthatshedontknowhowtohandleitthiswouldcause
scratchestohersteadyimageinotherseyessheneverknowsheisreallythisweak
sheismadwithherselffornotabletoanalysethingsfasterinsteadletproblems
consumeherthoroughlyuntiltheyoutpowerhermindheisrightsheisweakafter
allmaybesheisstillunstablesincethehorridpastshetriedherbesttofaceitherself
andnotlettingitoffonsomebodyelseshemissedhimwonderingwhathewouldbe
doingnowmissingmefiguringoutwhathasgottenherintothismoodyswingwell
afteralltherubbishshefeltatadbettersorestinpeacethedevil
posted by Ootwoly @ Monday, October 02, 2006
whoa..girl, i can reli feel ur 'mood swing'..
let the Bygones be Bygones
and let us cherish today while we await for the better tomorrow *hugz* :)
p/s: u gave me a great idea on writting in this form. thx!
Haha, don't you do that jolyn!
My mind was such a mess, it's just like a computer infected by virus.
Well yea, that explain my mood that time~ ha!
By the way do you even understand it?!
partially... =)
will re-read or shud i say re-anaylze it maybe sometime after exam.. haha.. i'm dizzy enuf.. keke =D