~Just a peace of mind~

Engaged in a conversation with a friend. Soft, relax and soothing one. I'm glad I bumped into him again after a while. After some incidents. He is not a very close friend but a good friend. We don't know each other for long time but still it is long enough to talk of anything. Heart to heart. He was quite of an ego back then. But I'm so glad that he took off a tad of his ego and becomes an angel of enlightenment now. He is hoping to pray for me. What I can say is I'm so proud of you atok! Oh well, I call him atok and he calls me cucucucucu. That's the rhythm of his own. Ha!

Anyway, he is expecting me to post something beautiful and happy here. In my blog. Something is bothering me very much and tieing me down, he says. Atok with philosophy huh? Well, I admit that I was in abit of chaotic state lately. But things will get better. HE has the plan for us, HE would solve it for us right? Yea he is a christian. Anyway, I felt myself has awaken today. Perhaps I was impressed by the way he sees things and how much he had changed himself to a better person. Why am I being so stubborn over some problems? Dear, I apologise if I gave you pressures.

I've got nothing much of joy to write here today. The biggest joy for today is that I've cleared the painful doubts and I had awaken. He is somehow right. He believes that if he trusts in God, he would be protected. I'm not really a christian so don't expect me to understand much of this. What I'm feeling now is I'm lighter and relieved. It's like the moment as I crave for light so much in the darkness and when I look up ahead the guiding light is awaiting. Recalling the mood swing I had and the sorrows that tied me down, I somehow felt shameful. Maybe I should learn to ease my strain and meditate someday. To keep the chaos outta me. I long for peace...