~Tilted Scale~

love, trust, forget, faith, confidence

a friend once says "I lied to him and it blow off my confidence and faith is fading away.."

Now I realised how she hurt herself badly stuck in the middle. As I walked further away from my horrid past, you were with me all along. I trusted everyone close to me in my life. I trust you. I don't trust myself. As I trudged further, the road is getting steeper and steeper. However, it ain't gonna stop me from venturing. I understand her pain coz I no longer feel confidence in myself too. I am no tough girl, but a weakling. I am more of a cynic when my scale tilts. All my life I realised how hard I've been balancing myself. My scale, my life. Will you help me get my balance?

The merciless ocean has once again turn fierce. Girl, you will survive from being consumed by the giant wave. I will too. The stars are guiding us from the above. The shore is near you where you least expected, you will be able to find something to cling on as you swim back towards the shore. The fishes will be ushering you back to where you belong. He is waiting for you. Remember you are the one and only control to yourself, no more.

The lessons that I learnt from my past is not easy one. Many says they have phobias over the history. Now I realised it is not the past that haunt us, it is the lessons that we learned from the past. I'm not sure whether they come for good. Deep inside I know well even if little thing happens, it would trigger the whole thing up. As if the stubborn history repeats itself once again, pressing down my confidence. Am I still living in the shadow of my past?

I really should just stop digging my frustrated past. I should go on...